Rainy Monday..
Happy Monday! It’s super rainy today here in Jersey. I love the rain, though. It’s calming and helps me get into a certain zone, creatively. I think it’s more so due to the fact that I’m forced to stay inside and think of other ways to be productive until the weather lets up. This morning, I am in a very grateful mood. I am grateful for God helping getting through a very emotional week. It really is a daunting task to juggle my day-to-day operations while having to go through some personal things that teach you a lot about yourself. You get to see what your made of when you go through storms or certain life changing events. I try to handle it the best way that I can and that is by not getting rattled and keeping my poise through the adversity. It takes a lot of inner-work. A lot of loving on yourself. A lot of self-evaluation and positive self-talk. It’s what helps me get through. Prayer is of huge importance in my every day life. I like to consider prayer as a positive transaction to myself, within myself. I use my prayer as a weapon to overcome myself. To overcome my fears and anxieties. To unlock all of the things that may keep me bound emotionally and mentally. Prayer changes things because I decide to change. I can’t change my circumstances unless I change myself on the inside first. And that is the true essence of prayer. Saying prayers as if they are already answered. The confidence it takes to do that, takes a lot of work at first because you have to build the discipline with consistency in order to make it a lifestyle.
For instance, Most people when they want to lose weight, chooses to look at the amount of weight they want to lose, when in my opinion, the focus should be creating new habits that encourage the lifestyle of the body you really want. During my weight loss journey, I had to completely live the life of someone who had the body type that I envisioned myself having. The best physical version of myself.
I kept the thought of a completely healthy and fit version of Jermy, that I refused to let go of. I didn’t even step on the scale during that process. My scale was simple, it was how I felt and how much I had to shop because my clothes started to get too big. I remember when it was the other way around. I was constantly going to buy new clothes because I kept getting bigger. Anyway, the fact of the matter is this: It’s a lifestyle change and the results you have been getting has been in direct correlation to how you’ve been living. The habits you create as encourage..This is something that I work on each and every day. I am just creating my own lifestyle and sharing it with everyone through my gifts. It’s how I express myself and sometimes, I can forget who I am and what I’m capable of doing. Most days I’m great, but when those days come where I’m in a mood, it can be hard to push through. But, being ok with that within yourself is what helps me shorten those times where I just need to take a break and unplug for a bit, just to recharge.
I hope you take some time out of your day for yourself. I pray that everything you ask for gets answered. I wish you good health and a sound mind. Thanks for stopping by today and don’t forget about YOU. Much Love. ❤️
-Jermy
Find out what it means to me..
I just want a little respect. I’m not asking for a lot. It just feels like lately, I’ve been going through some feelingsssssss” K-Ci voice lol and it would be nice if people would just be a little more compassionate and show a lot more empathy but, deep down inside I just want to say “Fuck it” you know? It’s just a lot that I’m dealing with and I think that I am starting to take a lot more things personal. I know that I shouldn’t, but I think that the last few months I’ve been experiencing some things that a lot of people my age have probably already faced and I guess it’s just my time to go through a little trial but I just count it all joy, each and every day, each and every occurrence.
This post is clearly turning into a rant…lol but that just how I feel, you know? You ever feel like every time you’re trying to move up, there’s always some bullshit that comes around to distract you? You know what I’m saying? I just think that I expect too much from other people when I shouldn’t even expect anything at all. That’s a lesson I’m also learning. I also want to add that I’m enjoying each and every second of it. I really am. I think that this adversity that I’m currently facing is a clear sign that I’m on my way to something bigger. The things that I’ve been asking for and I pray for grace and patience and mercy and empathy. I pray the same for whenever is reading this. God bless you all and thank you so much for taking the time to hear me vent lol. Thank you for all of the support and don’t forget to check out the Black Friday sale I have going on in the “New Products” section. I’ll leave the link below so it’ll be easier for you to find. Use the promo code: MUCHLOVE at checkout and you’ll get 30% off.
I am truly thankful and grateful for the support from everyone over the last 8 months. I am having the best year, ever. I am able to do something that I love everyday. I’m blessed that I get to help others in the process. Even in the midst of my happiness being threatened. It’s probably not the healthiest way to think for some people, but I’d much rather allow myself to go through the emotions and have the awareness to know when I’m being tested.
The more I write this blog, the more I realize that I have so much more work to do within myself and that my attention to self-care is growing exponentially. I’m gonna be ok and it’s all going to work out, as it always does, but I just wanted to share because I feel like this Is a safe space doe me to share what I’m feeling internally. I’m going to bed, much love. ❤️ -Jermy
