Morning Thoughts…
Good morning,
I’m just here in the middle of my morning routine and decided to write some things down on here because I’ve just been in this weird space lately. It probably feels “weird” because I’ve never been here before but it feels like it’s exactly where I should be on the journey to where I’m going. Every day there’s been so much love given to the black man and it’s great, but I don’t want to feel like I’m being given a medal or some special for something I’m supposed to be anyway. I’m supposed to be strong and fearless and a provider and a leader and a great father and son and sibling. I’m supposed to to not know what handcuffs feel like (and I still haven’t) I don’t want special attention and love from black women because we have lost so many black men from the hands of the police…I want that special love and attention when a pandemic doesn’t have to be involved in order for my significant other to feel like they have to show me they love me. I don’t want it because of this police brutality and injustice issue we are currently having. I know that we aren’t all perfect. I can only speak for myself in that regard, but I’m just in a weird space with black women. It’s not a negative space, by any means, but even in relationships, it’s like… Why can’t we get this kind of love on a regular basis? I want a relationship that’s genuine. I don’t want a relationship that requires the national holiday energy for you to get praised or acknowledged I want a relationship where I won’t be bombarded with lists and demands from women who have biological clocks and grandmothers and aunties who always ask them “When are you getting married??” Or my personal favorite, “When are you gonna have some babies?” I just want a companionship and it puts unnecessary pressure on us to deliver and I think that can be a bit unfair. I don’t want love because you’re racing the clock. In my opinion, that kind of love is conditional. Maybe I’m jaded, you know? Maybe I’m just naive to my own concepts of what I believe love is.
I believe that love is something that you are. You work on it every day and you give your love to your significant other based on how much you love yourself, first. Only then can you give out that love to someone else where it’s so obvious that it’s meant to be. It’s so obvious that you love that person so much in your own heart, that you are willing to push past their imperfections and never hold it against them. The same way you would or SHOULD be doing for YOURSELF. Love is led by example. Because God so loved the world, HE GAVE. That is an action, a verb that often goes unnoticed because if the gift that was given and not the reason WHY the gift was given in the first place. I believe that myself, as a black man is the same way. I give adoration and praise and encouragement to others when they are down but I believe the love should be given even more when things are UP. When things are going great, that’s just my opinion.
I hope all of you have had a great weekend. I had a chance to finally chill and relax a bit. It felt good to finally be outside with other people around. You know what I’m saying? And I must admit, it is kind of a challenge to remember to bring a mask anywhere. I don’t want to wear a mask forever and I don’t think I will. I mean, I have to wear them inside stores obviously, but I’m just still really conflicted and confused on the whole ordeal. One minute I’m in a packed gym with fans and people all around and now all of a sudden, I have to go back wearing a mask forever? I don’t know how this is all going to effect people and how the run businesses. Especially the ones that require you to be around large groups of people, I have no idea. I did however, think of a solution to minimize the amount of kids required to be in basketball rosters. I think basketball programs should be small anyway. But that’s another post for another day.
This just might be one of my more honest posts. I didn’t really think about what I was going to talk about and just decided to write and this is the result. lol It may a little scattered but I feel like I got my point across. I just want to live my life in peace. Peace in a world that’s filled with chaos and it’s already enough chaos being a black man here in America, or anywhere for that matter. So to all of my Black Queens out there, when we get past this historic moment in time, keep that same energy when things get better for us. Don’t stop rooting for us. Don’t stop supporting us. Forgive us and work with us. Love on us. Understand us. It’s your love that we may need to depend on when we don’t even feel good about ourselves sometimes. It’s your love that helps keep us going. Helping us strive for more. Helping us be the best version of ourselves and allowing us the space to do so. We are young, smart, talented and creative individuals just trying to map things out on a daily basis while still working in some places that probably can’t wait to fire us or keep us shut out so we can be the best that we can be for our families.
its a never ending fight it seems. We take a couple steps forward and then take a few years back. I’m just so glad that during this protesting time, that people are fighting for us as a people. By the people and for the people, the way it should be. With Love and with FORCE.
Before I go, I pray that you have a fantastic day and an even better week. I pray for an unexpected blessing to come your way! I pray that you continue to believe in yourself and keep a positive mindset only. I pray that you have the knowledge and wisdom to know when to remove yourself from people and or situations that may bring down your energy. I pray that you forgive them and love them from afar, if need be. I pray for provision and financial security in your life. I pray that the income you have been blessed with gets put back into your business and helps elevate wealth for your family. I pray that you believe in yourself. I pray that you know that you are enough. I pray that you always put yourself first. I pray that you grow to have a love for yourself that is unmatched and is so full that you have to give it away to others. I pray for your business this morning. I pray that God covers your overhead and other expenses to help you weather the storm. I pray for you to give more love. Always give more love because YOU ARE LOVE.
-Jermy
