“The Worry Weather Channel”

Lately, I’ve been thinking that I actually like surprises.

Nah, for real.

I used to be the guy who needed to know what was coming next. Not because I hated surprises — I just thought control kept me safe. But the truth is, when I try to stay “in the know” about everything, I end up robbing myself of one of life’s greatest gifts: the thrill of not knowing.

That realization took some serious self-awareness.

My ego — my inner critic — had been intercepting everything, trying to forecast the future as a survival tactic.

My mind turned into a Worry Weather Channel, broadcasting endless predictions about what could go wrong. And for years, I tuned in every day.

Eventually, I had to cut the power off on that fan and wait for the blades to slow down. That’s where patience comes in — sitting still while the mind learns to stop spinning.

In that stillness, I had to forgive myself — not just for doubting me, but for doubting God.

My ego had me convinced that if I handled everything myself, things would move faster. But that was really just a lack of trust… and patience.

Now, I’m better. I’ve learned to let God surprise me. Because every time I try to peek behind the curtain, I end up missing the magic.

Think about it: even Christmas would be pretty lame if nobody wrapped the gifts.

Just boxes sitting out in the open with your name on them, waiting for December 25th. The waiting is part of the joy.

Yeah, not every surprise is good — nobody wants to be blindsided by bad news or loss. But I’m talking about the good surprises — the kind that sneak up on you in aisle 7 at Target, or at a surprise birthday party, or when that thing you’ve prayed for finally shows up after years of silence.

Those moments remind me that faith isn’t about prediction — it’s about participation.

It’s about trusting that God knows how to wrap the gift better than I ever could.

Maybe the best stories start when we stop trying to write the next chapter ourselves.

So now, I’m learning to make room for surprise — to walk slower, trust deeper, and keep my eyes open for the moments God’s been quietly wrapping behind the scenes.

Because when it finally shows up… I want to be present enough to unwrap it with wonder. ✨

Much Love,

Jermy