Full Circle

It’s funny how life repeats itself but on different levels. The term “Full Circle” always has the connotation of “You start right back where you ended” in my eyes. But lately, it’s been feeling like that’s true, but on another level. That level to me is, “Starting at the beginning, with the knowledge of where you finished.” It’s a cheat code, really. By giving yourself a chance to start over, you can take the knowledge from the life lessons you’ve experienced and use it as a stronger foundation to begin your new starting point. Now mind you, “starting over” will probably be the biggest hurdle because so many people are in situations where they want to leave and start fresh, but they are simply too afraid to pull the trigger. Some May never get a chance to “Start over” because they’re afraid of letting go. And if you cannot let go, then you are holding back the blessing that’s waiting for you. You can’t ask God for a new car if you haven’t gotten rid of the old one. Or, even take care of the one you do have.
When your life comes full circle, it’s important to know that it is a good thing. Scaling yourself down so that you can have room to grow is not a bad thing. Downsizing is not a bad thing. The things you have are most likely connected to how you want others to feel or think about yourself in some form or another, but starting over should always be a time to rejoice in the fact that you decided to have the courage to move on to bigger and better things. That to me is coming full circle. Have a great today and believe in yourself. 🖤 -Jermy

Morning Thoughts…

Good morning,
I’m just here in the middle of my morning routine and decided to write some things down on here because I’ve just been in this weird space lately. It probably feels “weird” because I’ve never been here before but it feels like it’s exactly where I should be on the journey to where I’m going. Every day there’s been so much love given to the black man and it’s great, but I don’t want to feel like I’m being given a medal or some special for something I’m supposed to be anyway. I’m supposed to be strong and fearless and a provider and a leader and a great father and son and sibling. I’m supposed to to not know what handcuffs feel like (and I still haven’t) I don’t want special attention and love from black women because we have lost so many black men from the hands of the police…I want that special love and attention when a pandemic doesn’t have to be involved in order for my significant other to feel like they have to show me they love me. I don’t want it because of this police brutality and injustice issue we are currently having. I know that we aren’t all perfect. I can only speak for myself in that regard, but I’m just in a weird space with black women. It’s not a negative space, by any means, but even in relationships, it’s like… Why can’t we get this kind of love on a regular basis? I want a relationship that’s genuine. I don’t want a relationship that requires the national holiday energy for you to get praised or acknowledged I want a relationship where I won’t be bombarded with lists and demands from women who have biological clocks and grandmothers and aunties who always ask them “When are you getting married??” Or my personal favorite, “When are you gonna have some babies?” I just want a companionship and it puts unnecessary pressure on us to deliver and I think that can be a bit unfair. I don’t want love because you’re racing the clock. In my opinion, that kind of love is conditional. Maybe I’m jaded, you know? Maybe I’m just naive to my own concepts of what I believe love is.

I believe that love is something that you are. You work on it every day and you give your love to your significant other based on how much you love yourself, first. Only then can you give out that love to someone else where it’s so obvious that it’s meant to be. It’s so obvious that you love that person so much in your own heart, that you are willing to push past their imperfections and never hold it against them. The same way you would or SHOULD be doing for YOURSELF. Love is led by example. Because God so loved the world, HE GAVE. That is an action, a verb that often goes unnoticed because if the gift that was given and not the reason WHY the gift was given in the first place. I believe that myself, as a black man is the same way. I give adoration and praise and encouragement to others when they are down but I believe the love should be given even more when things are UP. When things are going great, that’s just my opinion.

I hope all of you have had a great weekend. I had a chance to finally chill and relax a bit. It felt good to finally be outside with other people around. You know what I’m saying? And I must admit, it is kind of a challenge to remember to bring a mask anywhere. I don’t want to wear a mask forever and I don’t think I will. I mean, I have to wear them inside stores obviously, but I’m just still really conflicted and confused on the whole ordeal. One minute I’m in a packed gym with fans and people all around and now all of a sudden, I have to go back wearing a mask forever? I don’t know how this is all going to effect people and how the run businesses. Especially the ones that require you to be around large groups of people, I have no idea. I did however, think of a solution to minimize the amount of kids required to be in basketball rosters. I think basketball programs should be small anyway. But that’s another post for another day.
This just might be one of my more honest posts. I didn’t really think about what I was going to talk about and just decided to write and this is the result. lol It may a little scattered but I feel like I got my point across. I just want to live my life in peace. Peace in a world that’s filled with chaos and it’s already enough chaos being a black man here in America, or anywhere for that matter. So to all of my Black Queens out there, when we get past this historic moment in time, keep that same energy when things get better for us. Don’t stop rooting for us. Don’t stop supporting us. Forgive us and work with us. Love on us. Understand us. It’s your love that we may need to depend on when we don’t even feel good about ourselves sometimes. It’s your love that helps keep us going. Helping us strive for more. Helping us be the best version of ourselves and allowing us the space to do so. We are young, smart, talented and creative individuals just trying to map things out on a daily basis while still working in some places that probably can’t wait to fire us or keep us shut out so we can be the best that we can be for our families.

its a never ending fight it seems. We take a couple steps forward and then take a few years back. I’m just so glad that during this protesting time, that people are fighting for us as a people. By the people and for the people, the way it should be. With Love and with FORCE.

Before I go, I pray that you have a fantastic day and an even better week. I pray for an unexpected blessing to come your way! I pray that you continue to believe in yourself and keep a positive mindset only. I pray that you have the knowledge and wisdom to know when to remove yourself from people and or situations that may bring down your energy. I pray that you forgive them and love them from afar, if need be. I pray for provision and financial security in your life. I pray that the income you have been blessed with gets put back into your business and helps elevate wealth for your family. I pray that you believe in yourself. I pray that you know that you are enough. I pray that you always put yourself first. I pray that you grow to have a love for yourself that is unmatched and is so full that you have to give it away to others. I pray for your business this morning. I pray that God covers your overhead and other expenses to help you weather the storm. I pray for you to give more love. Always give more love because YOU ARE LOVE.

-Jermy

Daily inspirations..

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Times a wastin’..

Tik tok, tik tok, time waits for no man! It’s time to get going on that thing you want to do. That life you want to live, that business you want to start. That hobby you want to pick up… Now is the time! Despite all of the incidences occurring in our world today, it is imperative, now more than ever, to love the life that you truly want to live. So many people are so afraid of taking the leap of faith on things because they have been consumers of the negative thoughts and responses from loved ones. Those negative thoughts crowd the space inside the mind and the more that you think of it, the more you believe it. The Bible says that whatsoever a man thinks, so is he. (PROVERBS 23:7)
So I encourage you, whoever is reading this, that if you have been bombarded by negativity on a daily basis and you feel like you are starting to have a feeling of being muted in any capacity, DO IT ANYWAY. Do it anyway. Many people are influenced or motivated by certain things and so it may be easier for them to have the motivation to push through hard times and negative thoughts and emotions but what about the ones who don’t have any motivation. The ones that feel like they don’t have a reason to get up in the morning. What about those people? Well, my advice would be to you: Every idea or concept that you have a desire to pursue and achieve, keep it to yourself. Do not let people in on your ideas and here’s the reason why. Nobody is inside of your brain but YOU. There are some outrageous ideas that are floating through your minds on a daily basis and people just won’t be able to grasp the magnitude of this idea that was obviously given to you from God, unless he aligns people in your life that are like minded but if that was the case, you wouldn’t be feeling the way you’re currently feeling because surrounding yourself with like minded individuals. Get together with people that think like you and are into similar things. That is only going to attract more people into your life that are in the same vibration as you. You won’t be able to really tap into that gift or concept unless you decide to take that chance on yourself. Love yourself enough to give you a chance to be the very best version of yourself. Love and treat yourself like you would want someone to treat you and you will end up having a multitude of people in your life that won’t pour negativity onto your ideas when you do feel that you have to share them. People should be cheering you on and fully supporting your decision to join that band or finally try doing stand-up comedy at an open mic. You just never know and time is ticking faster than it ever has, it seems. Don’t stay in that relationship that’s making you miserable. Quit that job that’s not getting you anywhere and find a job in the field of what you really have a desire for and work there instead. Be committed, be courageous and trust that whatever it is that you have been praying for, WILL COME TO PASS! I guarantee it, or else my God is a liar and that couldn’t be further from the truth.
I really pray for my black brothers and sisters today all over the world that has been effected by the police brutality killings of young African American brothers and sisters who deserve to live and not die. I pray for healing for those that have been wounded and scarred. I pray for sunshine for those who have felt like they have been under the clouds and in the midst of storms lately. I pray for the educators, the first responders and essential workers who have had to endure catastrophic experiences that I am sure will last with them a lifetime. I pray for parents who have to explain to their young children exactly what’s going on. I pray for single mothers having to hold down households by themselves. I pray for single fathers having to do the same exact thing. I pray for change. I pray for a renewal of the governments minds that they are led to do the right thing by the people who pay their salaries. I pray for police officers who are honest and upright citizens. May you have the courage to speak out against your racist counterparts, not with hate, but with love. I pray for anyone who still has hate for black people. If you are of hate, then You are an enemy of Love and and enemy of my God. I pray the worst for them. I pray for every family that had to go through having their loved ones taken away from them. Amen.

I am a firm believer that time is your inventory. Where you spend the most time is where you will excel the best. Just make sure that you enjoy doing if it, so much in fact, that you would do it for free. Until next tine, Believe in yourself, to God be the Glory, the devil is a liar. Much Love

-Jermy

Just some thoughts…

I feel like I’m supposed to have words but I don’t. I have hate in my heart. I have fear for my life. Fear for my son’s life. I wish I could comfort those who need it but I’m empty. I’m just tired. Beyond exhausted. Undoubtedly distracted. I just want to delete everything but I can’t. I can’t NOT say anything.. cant NOT feel anything...what am I even supposed to do? I’m hurt today. Been hurt all week. People who you think are your friends are just familiar strangers. I gotta wear a damn mask everywhere...watching my back every turn in this environment. Don’t know who’s on my side or who isn’t. Don’t know Who understands and who doesn’t. People I have checked on when they were down don’t reach out. People who I have helped have shut me out but here I stand anyway...living and growing and learning every single step of the way. It’s just really frustrating and I just don’t want to talk but I would be just like the others who continue to bite their tongue on the injustice. Telling me to “Protest the right way” like they know what the fuck my life entails. Every day it’s a fight. I have to fight my environment. I have to fight doors being slammed in my face because of my skin. Fitness who know you need help and refuse, it’s a fight. A real fight. A fight for respect. A fight for love. Fight after fight after fight and I’m tired. I pray that this season makes you strong. I pray that you learn to accept the skin you’re in and love yourself no matter what. For all of my non-black friends who may not know how to convey their feelings in regards to the challenges we have to face, a text is more than enough. Your phone calls are more than enough and I pray that you gain wisdom wand understanding during this unprecedented time.

This is a very pivotal time in history for our nation. For our country and for black people all over the world who have been pushed down, day after day after day. Who have been murdered in cold blood by a force that you would is actually here to “Protect and serve.” It’s been a systematic oppression at every turn since slaves won their freedom. And all of us by generations and generations of suffering we’ve had to go through and here we are, at this very moment, still fighting for our lives on a daily basis. It is sad. I am angry and it has been very difficult consuming all of this information and all of the videos and pictures and commentary and people crying on their social media platforms crying out for freedom. Crying out to be heard. Crying out to not be a target or shooting practice for that matter. Why are we the hunted? Still? After all these years. After being ripped from our children and packed and shipped like useless cargo. Why us? Why US? Why??? Why do I have to be trained to love in fear of another man because of the color of my skin? Why does my son have to be afraid to go outside and play with his friends? Why do we have to be he’s down and be left out of conversations and political seats and corporate positions of power? Why? I just want to pursue my passions and raise my children in a place where they will not be judged for the color of their skin. And neither am I. Why is that so much to ask for?

I am trying really hard to not be emotional but to have a greater sense of logic on how to navigate through all of the road blocks being a black man in America may entail. It consumes a lot of my thought process. And I’m still trying to put it all together while in quarantine at that. Still trying not to be taken out by some random virus and the police at the same damn time…imagine that. Stay Black. Much Love Love

-Jermy ✊🏾💪🏾🙏🏽👑🖤